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This Feels a Little Weird, but Also Necessary.

If you follow me on social media, I don’t think it’s a secret when I say that the past few years haven’t been spectacular. And by not spectacular, I mean downright crappy. I then learned firsthand that in being unhappy, even doing the things that should have brought me joy didn’t work. There was a stretch of time when I wasn’t in the mood to read, and when I don’t read, there’s not really anything that I can blog about. And I realized that when you don’t blog for a period of time, it’s hard to get back into it. I would “write” blog posts in my head, but when push came to shove, I couldn’t transfer those words into any posts.

This doesn’t mean that I’ve lost my love for blogging or reading though. As the days and weeks blurred into months, I started reading something a bit different. I’ve started reading a lot of romance, and all the happily-ever-afters have given me lot of joy, and eventually, hope. And of course, as I started to feel good, I started wanting to blog again, which I did, little by little. But then I found out, as much as I wanted to blog, my blog itself didn’t make me happy. My blog was full of apologies and promises that I never fulfilled, and these posts made me sad and uncomfortable. And it was here where I decided that if I wanted to continue blogging, I had to start from scratch.

The thought of starting from scratch was terrifying. I wouldn’t be able to move all my previous subscribers to my new blog, and I would lose all my views. Also, in the back of my mind, there’s that niggling insecurity that maybe, no one would care. However, as terrifying as everything sounded, it also sounded exciting. I would be able to start over; there would be no pressure whatsoever; and there would be no previous posts reminding me of everything I wasn’t able to do. I can just be me.

Thank you for reading, and it would mean the world to me if you would subscribe, comment, and like my posts. Welcome to Defiantly Deviant 2.0!

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  • Reply Sophia (Bookwyrming Thoughts)

    “There was a stretch of time when I wasn’t in the mood to read, and when I don’t read, there’s not really anything that I can blog about. And I realized that when you don’t blog for a period of time, it’s hard to get back into it. I would “write” blog posts in my head, but when push came to shove, I couldn’t transfer those words into any posts.” Ahhh, I totally understand where you’re coming from; this is a huge mood for me lately! It’s hard to get back when you’re used to not creating anything (and it’s especially the case when you’ve been doing so for so long). Welcome back, Lyra! I’m glad to see you’ve found the joy in reading and blogging once more. 🙂

    November 1, 2019 at 10:59 pm
    • Reply Lyra

      Thank you for the warm welcome, Sophia! I’m super excited for this new journey, and I hope that I blog consistently for a long time! 🙂

      November 4, 2019 at 11:17 am

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